Rain Rain Go Away

Finally there has been some sunshine. Have a fair number of clothes to wash and dry, so I hope that the rain will stay away until monday.

The Shaving

Whenever I shave, the hairs under my chin are the must stubborn things. I think that I have got the complete shave, then go into the sower and have a good wash. But once I get out of the shower, I check the mirror the admire my smooth face, there is always a group of half-shaved hairs under the chin. So frustrating.

Reality Check

"What is this? What are we doing? What in God's name are we doing?" - J

"What?" - G

"Our lives! What kind of lives are these? We're like children. We're not men." - J

"No we're not. We're not men." - G

"We come up with all these stupid little reasons to break up with these women." - J

"I know, I know! That's what I do. That's what I do!" - G

"Are we going to be sitting here when we're sixty like two idiots?" - J

"We should be having dinner with our sons when we're sixty." - G

"We're pathetic, you know that?" - J

"Yeah, like I don't know that I'm pathetic." - G

"Why can't I be normal?" - J

"Yes! Me too! I want to be normal. Normal!" - G

"It would be nice to care about someone." - J

"Yes! Yes! Care!" - G

- Jerry and George, in the episode "The Engagement", TV series "Seinfeld"

I know it is only a silly comedy series, but it does hit home for me. I am insecure about who I am, and how I interact with others. I know I have the properties of a good human being. I trust my parents have given me the right guidance, through the teachings and life of Jesus Christ. But along the way I picked up the ways of the world, the thoughts of being unworthy to be who I am, "with no money and power you are nothing". I do feel at times as a lost child in a shopping centre, looking for my parents in the crowd. I am scared that I judge myself and others before things happen. I am scared to let people down, even though I am doing my best. "Give me strength, O Lord"

Hello 2009

Well here we are in 2009. It still feels like 2008.

Last year I was raving on about Football Manager 2009, my brother and I have joined the 'I Hate Football Manager 2009' bandwagon. The tactics have been dumbed down, I just don't find enjoyment in this version. Sure, there will be days when I want to play it, but unlike the other versions I am not daydreaming about it (like changing tactics and signing different players). Grrr, so frustrating!

Christmas was fun with the relatives, haven't talked with them (like a long serious/fun chat) in a long time. The day was very hot, but still table tennis was played out on the verandah in the heat. My old man and bro played doubles against my uncle Graham and his son Brendan, very competitive game of tabletennis. My family lost by two pionts, grrr, shame, shame, shame! LOL. There was tonnes of food, normal for a Weier gathering, what was not eaten at lunch was eaten at dinner and what was not eaten at dinner was eaten the next day, too much food!!!!

New Year was a quiet one, I was in bed by 8pm, falling asleep reading, excitining hey?!

I have a job interview this afternoon, and still waiting for a call from another job. The one I am waiting for is really got me thinking about my morals and my Christian beliefs. I have an one in four chance in getting a delivery drivers job for a rental company (renting tvs, white goods and so on), but I have an issue with one aspect of the job. Because they deal with mainly old/low income people there is times when I might have to go into someones place and remove items when they don't pay the fees. And so I am battling with myself in this issue.

My friend Kristan was married on the 2nd, a shame I was unable to go. All the best my friend!

Weddings, Parties and Anything

Well I think this will be my last post for the year 2008. I am heading to my parents on Tuesday and probably stay out there until after the new year is ushered in.

This year has been a strange one, an eye opener to me personally. To see how life is so fragile, nothing else matters than the relationship I have God, and now I have to learn to cope with my medical issues so they don't affect my work and my life.

I am still unemployed, though I have looked and started jobs. I had to realize with my medical conditions that I have now, I just can't jump into any job I want. I have to be patient, and study the job that I am applying. Last four months I have just applied for anything and I just hate being unemployed so much. But the jobs that I did start, they made my health worse, because of my ongoing medical problems. I have been a slow learner in this, until now. So I might have to be retrained in a field, or do some short courses.

My good friend, Kristan, is getting married on the 2nd Jan. I am disappointed that I am unable to attend, but that is life I guess. I know he will be a good husband and future father. I haven't met the bride, Kath, but I am sure that she is going to be a good wife and future mother. My thoughts and prayers for the coming together of these two under God's love and grace.

This might be the last Weier big Christmas. All the kids are having their own family Christmas, and live in all parts of the country now, N.S.W. and N.T., so it is hard for them to get back. I do miss the old days of backyard cricket, water fights and sitting under a tree entering watermelon.

I hope to head to Malaysia in 2009, to visit a dear friend, Ashley-Jade. I owe her big time for her love and support during my difficult times. One thing she hopes to do is, to take me to a strawberry growing area, so I can eat all the strawberries I can, now that will be fun. Also to spend some long nights watching football and kung fu movies. God bless you, AJ.

Qld Roar are third on the table at this stage of the season, with teams around them losing this weekend so far, I hope that can get a winning streak going on so they are on top of the table come end of the season. I want them to play Asian Champions League football in 2010.
Liverpool are holding onto first place in the EPL, and I hope they are able to keep it together for the rest of the season.

Other friend, Konrad, has had his prayers answered with a new teaching position next year. My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend on this new journey.

Well that is all I have to say for 2008. May you continue to trust in the Lord, as He is the Way, the Truth and the Light of our lives.